Hiya

I should preface this whole thing by saying that I generally detest blogs, and people who use them with any real frequency. It reeks of the unselfconscious narcissism that is the unfortunate hallmark of most people of my generation. Nonetheless, I'm tired of talking to myself most of the time, or finding that most of the people I talk to are ones I'm not comfortable talking about most things with. So ta da, here I am, blogging to the internet where I can, for a short while anyway, remain essentially faceless and anonymous.

I will talk about a lot of different things on here, but the focus will be on what I've come to realize is my only real strongsuit--thinking. I don't presume that I'm always thinking in the right direction, in the right way, or about things that particularly matter to anyone other than myself, but I do it a lot, which is why I'm a philosophy major/ asian studies minor in college. The only person with whom I know I can converse on any really constructive level is off elsewhere, and will remain so. I'm hoping that some will come and ask questions, propose solutions, or just generally interject thought into the rambling I'm bound to get into (if I haven't already yet).

Hell, I started one of these stupid things before and deleted it because I couldn't stop talking.

I'll try to restrain myself for the time being as I continue, for a shortwhile longer anyhow, to look for a summer job. I know that this was a jobless recovery, but it still stinks sitting at home, dependent on your parents for living, waiting for fall to arrive....

I don't expect that anyone will magically come along and join in whatever conversation I'm having with myself; really, this is just a place for airing out all the stuff in my head, as I don't like to burden those I know personally with my own troubles (seems like an odd problem, doesn't it? Sharing openly with those I don't know [at least when I really don't know them], and then pulling away once we know each other better. I suppose the fact that I can do that at all is the privilege afforded people by the internet).

Really, why would anyone care what I say on here? It's highly unlikely anyone here will know me personally(and frankly, I hope you don't), so you have no reason to care. If no one comes at all, this'll just be a little online journal. Like I said, this place is little more than somewhere for me to jot down thought bubbles before they all pop over my head, leaving me absolutely drenched and hopeless.